There are records that feel like confessions, and then there are confessions that become records. "Hello, Catholic Guilt" belongs unmistakably to the latter breed - a single, 27-minute, slow-burning drone-liturgy that unfolds like a whispered mea culpa in the shadow of a church you haven’t stepped into in twenty years but still dream about during thunderstorms.
Walter Campbell, formerly (and perhaps eternally) Catholic, crafts an ambient monolith that doesn’t scream or weep, but instead simmers with internal heat. Five invisible sections trace a quiet psychodrama - Father, Son, Holy, Spirit, Amen - each corresponding to a decade of spiritual weather. This isn’t the rage of deconversion or the ecstasy of release. It’s something more nuanced, more unresolved: the low-hum of theological tinnitus, a presence that lingers even when belief has long since packed its bags and left.
The piece moves with tectonic patience, shifting textures like moods - grainy tones that swell and decay, a buried choir of sighs and synths barely audible under layers of warm fog and frayed tape. Think Pinkcourtesyphone in a state of existential doubt, or The Caretaker without the ballroom - just the echoing lobby of memory. There are no jump scares, no climaxes, no neat resolutions. Just the low-frequency murmur of someone reconciling themselves with ghosts that never quite left the room.
Campbell cites influences like Smell & Quim and Grant Evans, but this record isn’t vulgar or abrasive - it’s devotional in form if not in content. The improvisational flow suggests spontaneity, but the restraint feels monkish. A discipline of doubt. A silence that says more than any creed.
It’s also, in its way, funny. Not ha-ha funny, but funny in that painfully familiar way that guilt can twist itself into knots over the most mundane of acts - swearing in traffic, eating too quickly, skipping the Sign of the Cross at dinner. The title alone carries a smirk: "Hello, Catholic Guilt" - as if answering a call that was never disconnected. One imagines a rotary phone ringing in a dream, and a voice saying, “Sorry, God, for swearing”, before hanging up again.
Mastered by Grant Richardson at Hex Audio Labs, the sonic clarity is remarkable for something that wants so badly to dissolve. It never collapses under its own weight, nor does it drift aimlessly. Rather, it pulses forward like someone kneeling through the stations of a personal, wordless cross.
"Hello, Catholic Guilt" is not just a piece of music. It’s an ambience of memory, a quietly radiant reckoning, a half-lit corridor between belief and identity. It asks nothing of the listener but patience, presence - and maybe, just maybe, a small act of forgiveness.